The worst feeling ever is to feel like shit but you don't know what's wrong. Feeling that no one cares and you're in this alone. Like you know you're gonna stop functioning soon but you can do nothing about it. Yet people think I'm over reacting. Things haven't been the same for long and my heart's really numb now. At times like this when I just don't know where or what to turn to and all I am is just being a burden to everyone else around me. Time just has to stop.
Hi! It's been 5 days since I've been off twitter and I miss twitter so much T_T but I'm handling this better than expected because i thought i'd beg for my twitter password from my friend right after logging out, but I haven't. Being off twitter saves up my phone's battery and it also helps me to chill out abit, since i've got no one to stalk/no one to impress. But the sad thing is people actually unfollowed me hais :'( what is this! & no one misses me from twitter so no point being on twitter when no one wants me there lol.
I have been studying and doing past year papers but I still feel as dumb as fuck because I'm not doing very well in this "studying" process. I got sick a few days ago and I lost my voice (literally) but I'm getting better! However, the medication makes me feel very drowsy + weak, therefore my studying/revision process is affected lol *excuses* Thank god for the holiday tomorrow so I can have more time to study. Social studies + maths paper next tuesday and hopefully I can memorise my humanities content soon! Tuition later then library with Hae Ryeong after. Hopefully I can use this 2 days productively before the papers actually start. Bye!!
Hello Hello! So i'm back from tuition/town and today wasn't productive at all! English paper done and I'm left with the rest starting from Friday again! The horror T_T
Met Azri after a gazillion years and he made me decide to stop using twitter for the time being. I feel that twitter is a great place to socialise and know what's going on but I really think that it's a distraction for me and I'll get more hurt by stalking people from my past. I started to take tuition because i thought it'll help me to improve my grades so I don't want to disappoint my parents by failing subs again! Hehe so today will be my last day on twitter till end of o's? I don't know if i can bear from leaving twitter hais but it's okay i'll persevere!
I'm feeling a little bit lousy today, lousier than normal. Exams are around the corner but I'm still wasting my time feeling down and sobbing instead of really burying my head in books. English paper tomorrow so I should blog today.. (don't think it'll help but i'll try my luck)
I know I'm not the only one who feels this way but I don't think I can go on feeling like this anymore. I used to say that money can but happiness but I realised that all the money in the world can't bring me to feel fine. I'm losing friends slowly, day by day and I'm losing myself too. Directions aren't as clear anymore and I think if my life continues to be this way, I'll really lose my life and never get it back..
The source to my problem now is just those 4 letters -> love. Cliche but it's the truth. Without it, without you, I wouldn't be feeling this way. How would you feel if THE GUY said "The problem is I don't care" to you after you pour all your feelings, emotions bla3... I mean wouldn't that just be hurtful...The pain cuts like a knife but it's exquisite like how I slowly push the knife on my wrist and slit it.. People may think that I'm stupid for doing such things but for me, that's all that can make me feel better and calm me down.
It's been almost a year since I've been feeling this way & I know I should be "used to it". A part of it may be true but one does not simply not feel anything despite going through it a million times. My life has been very torturing because of what I do to myself but I can't seem to stop. I can't seem to stop being pessimistic but at the same time, hoping for something to happen. I can't seem to stop hurting myself just to calm myself down.
I've done so much for you but you go around ruining my reputation. Don't you have anything better to do? You're the reason why i'm feeling like this, why i still hope, but why i am actually going through shit. I always thought that you'd be the one. I always thought you got my back. But I'm wrong because you never cared.
Hi! It's been 5 days since I've been off twitter and I miss twitter so much T_T but I'm handling this better than expected because i thought i'd beg for my twitter password from my friend right after logging out, but I haven't. Being off twitter saves up my phone's battery and it also helps me to chill out abit, since i've got no one to stalk/no one to impress. But the sad thing is people actually unfollowed me hais :'( what is this! & no one misses me from twitter so no point being on twitter when no one wants me there lol.